Tuesday, December 27, 2005
i hate this. [i said 'this' not 'you']
u made me promise u.
u made me cry.
and now u totally don't care at all.
if i knew this would happen. i wouldn't have even talk to you. i might as well ignore u the whole day. the whole week. the whole OF MY LIFE. but i jolly well know that i suck at ignoring people. esp my friends. i will feel bad. you may think i did a good job at ignoring people.
BUT I'M TELLING YOU RIGHT NOW I SUCK AT THAT.
YES. AND I SUCK STRAWS!!! VERY COLOURFUL STRAWS!!! ARGH.
sometimes i just feel like telling you everything. but hey, you were not there. or my subconscious mind just keep telling me that you're busy or you wouldn't want to know about my stuffs at all. somehow, i wish, you would tell me that whatever i thought of is not true.
YEP. I TOLD YOU THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME.
i am a sensitive person. so i may conclude stuffs that may not be true. but there's 1 thing i hate about myself is this, : when i conclude the whole thing. i believe it. and when i believe it. I FREAKING STAND STRONG FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN!!!!!! argh.
i dont want to lose u as my friend. i hate to lose stuffs. i hate losing people. i had to face the loss of my best friend in another sch when i was in sec1. he passed away of asthma. and god knows how long i cried.
after that, i learnt how to treasure my friends cos i don't wanna lose them.
and now i don't wanna lose anyone!!!
you understood how i felt when i was all alone. you offered your hand to help. that's what made me felt 'me' again.
i feel so sad. so damn freaking sad. so damn freaking downcasted.
i feel so unwanted. so damn freaking unwanted. so damn freaking unattended.
im feeling blue. so damn freaking blue. so damn freaking NAVY BLUE!!!
im going bonkers.
I AM GOING TO VACUUM THE FLOOR!!!!! MANY MANY TIMES.
oh did i say?? my mom assigned me that job. i have to do it every 3 days. mwaahaha.
ARGH!!!!!!!
u made me promise u.
u made me cry.
and now u totally don't care at all.
if i knew this would happen. i wouldn't have even talk to you. i might as well ignore u the whole day. the whole week. the whole OF MY LIFE. but i jolly well know that i suck at ignoring people. esp my friends. i will feel bad. you may think i did a good job at ignoring people.
BUT I'M TELLING YOU RIGHT NOW I SUCK AT THAT.
YES. AND I SUCK STRAWS!!! VERY COLOURFUL STRAWS!!! ARGH.
sometimes i just feel like telling you everything. but hey, you were not there. or my subconscious mind just keep telling me that you're busy or you wouldn't want to know about my stuffs at all. somehow, i wish, you would tell me that whatever i thought of is not true.
YEP. I TOLD YOU THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME.
i am a sensitive person. so i may conclude stuffs that may not be true. but there's 1 thing i hate about myself is this, : when i conclude the whole thing. i believe it. and when i believe it. I FREAKING STAND STRONG FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN!!!!!! argh.
i dont want to lose u as my friend. i hate to lose stuffs. i hate losing people. i had to face the loss of my best friend in another sch when i was in sec1. he passed away of asthma. and god knows how long i cried.
after that, i learnt how to treasure my friends cos i don't wanna lose them.
and now i don't wanna lose anyone!!!
you understood how i felt when i was all alone. you offered your hand to help. that's what made me felt 'me' again.
i feel so sad. so damn freaking sad. so damn freaking downcasted.
i feel so unwanted. so damn freaking unwanted. so damn freaking unattended.
im feeling blue. so damn freaking blue. so damn freaking NAVY BLUE!!!
im going bonkers.
I AM GOING TO VACUUM THE FLOOR!!!!! MANY MANY TIMES.
oh did i say?? my mom assigned me that job. i have to do it every 3 days. mwaahaha.
ARGH!!!!!!!
