Saturday, December 10, 2005
i found out something.
am i supposed to be sad or wad?
nah. i was already sad one of the days. so i shall be happy.
life is so hard for me. im always so unreal. luckily during camp, there was sabri. (: he rocks lah. making me laugh everyday. haha.
being happy is hard t0o. i need someone to cheer me up. really cheer me up. im always telling people to cheer up. but i've nvr really cheer up. don't ask me why. i don't know either. but life goes on.
i hate being alone. cos i'll think of ending my life. or worst. i'll just cry and cry and cry. don't tell me that im a big girl and stop all these crap. you're not me, so you don't know how i feel.
do you know how does it feels like when u're being outcasted?
do you know how does it feels like when u just need someone to hug, but there's no one?
do you know how it feels like when you're all alone and the knife is just on your table?
do you know how it feels like when u can only cry when u're about to sleep?
well, i know. cos yours truly went through aLL this before. and does anyone know? nah. now than you know right? and surprisingly, you people are called my friends.
i am afraid
i am frightened
i am scared
that no one will want to help me from all these. im really frightened.
i've given everything
i've love you endlessly
but when it comes to me
you don't even notice me.
am i supposed to be sad or wad?
nah. i was already sad one of the days. so i shall be happy.
life is so hard for me. im always so unreal. luckily during camp, there was sabri. (: he rocks lah. making me laugh everyday. haha.
being happy is hard t0o. i need someone to cheer me up. really cheer me up. im always telling people to cheer up. but i've nvr really cheer up. don't ask me why. i don't know either. but life goes on.
i hate being alone. cos i'll think of ending my life. or worst. i'll just cry and cry and cry. don't tell me that im a big girl and stop all these crap. you're not me, so you don't know how i feel.
do you know how does it feels like when u're being outcasted?
do you know how does it feels like when u just need someone to hug, but there's no one?
do you know how it feels like when you're all alone and the knife is just on your table?
do you know how it feels like when u can only cry when u're about to sleep?
well, i know. cos yours truly went through aLL this before. and does anyone know? nah. now than you know right? and surprisingly, you people are called my friends.
i am afraid
i am frightened
i am scared
that no one will want to help me from all these. im really frightened.
i've given everything
i've love you endlessly
but when it comes to me
you don't even notice me.
