TeaRs And SmiLes

Love.. What is all about Love.. It's a << LIKE>> feeling for someone the opposite sex.. I feel more and more in love with this guy.. i don't see him... but i think of him.. i dream of him... i missed him.. very very very much... i don't wanna let him know... just shhh.... love.. a break up entitles freedom... But will you stop thinking about this person... you feel like emailing him.. calling him up.. smsing him.. to let him know how are you now.. whatcha feeling.. whatcha doing... even just an " hello?!" from him cheers you up.. that's love.. when a love chain letter is sent to you and at the bottom of the letter it states "... are you thinking about somebody when u read this letter? and when you are, You're in love" when you tell this person that you will hate him forever and all of yr life... but when u were clearing up yr things and found many things given by him.. and u start to think back.. saying i love you softly to yr self.. that's love.. when you're in trouble and the first person you think about.. the first person u wanna say something to.. you're in love with this person.. you can't concentrate on yr work.. u keep thinking about him.. how is he? is he ok? that's love.. When you watch a love story.. and the first person u think of is him.. that's love.. LOVE LOVE AND MORE LOVE... Forget about this.. i am getting dizzy..

I've dreamt i was free.. i was happy at there.. No troubles.. No worries.. playing around so happily.. As if i was a toddler.. i didn't know what was happening around me.. even if the world is gonna end the next minute.. i didn't care.. all i care was what am i doing now.. But when i woke up, it was totally different.. it was the opposite... i was locked.. Unhappy.. looking sad and stress.. tons of troubles and worries.. sadden and downcatsed look i had on my face... i don't even to have the time to play.. not a sec.. homeworks are setting up.. on my table.. not nice..i never liked it.. so dammed never.. but well.. Just like wad Avril Lavinge said.. Life's Like this..

Scolding and shouting boomed into my ears as the Nco's scolding ALFA.. we quietly listened.. That's not me..Am i really changing.. i don't really want a drastic change.. yeah.. cuz if i were the last time lynette.. haha.. i would have shown colours to my nco's face.. but i didn't.. that's the problem.. i just feel that i am growing soft.. maybe stronger.. in the inside.. i take things lightly nowadays.. i dun get paranoid over small matters.. i do get last time.. Maybe.. i am getting more confidence... not the slack kind.. Not going to usher retreat.. FEVER..haix.. it seems like i just can't go anywhere nice huh? there are soo many things blocking my way.. Why is life like this!!!! i hate my life.. wadeva suyu said is true.. Life SUX!!! it sux totally man!!

As I see trees and grasses passing by like a lightning. Fast and quick.. Not leaving single trace, not even a single bit.. i think about my life.. how fast it passes by.. without even waiting for me to enjoy every single bit.. here am i suffering.. thinking about my childhood.. why does time has to bring me away from my happiness? Why? time goes so fast when i am happy... when i am sad.. it goes like a snail.. it's totally the opposite.. why can't lifw be much much more interesting so that it makes people happy? i just wanna know.... ok.. i DUN wanna go cellgroup.. get it.. it's so.. boring.. yeah.. you guys might have all think that i have changed.. well the truth is.. I AM CHANGING.. i am gonna be more firm.. stronger than yesterday..